getting away.

‎"This kind of forgetting does not erase memory, it lays the emotion surrounding the memory to rest."

i came across this quote this morning while i was flowing through different websites. i really love it when i read a quote that directly explains what is going on in this mess of a mind i have. like i am not the only one who feels the way that i do.

recent events in my life proved to be very trying on my mind. i felt like the worst enemy of mine, were the very thoughts in my head. no matter what i did, some days i couldn't escape my own mind. it was a scary place to be, when the one thing i should be able to control, i couldn't.

i do not feel like i was a different person, or that i had forgotten all i have learned in my life. but it sure was a slap on my face to wake me up. this life is definitely one full of trial and error.

i am the kind of person who likes to look at others mistakes and misjudgments, and learn from theirs so i won't ever make the same mistakes. but honestly, i will never be immune to messing up. that is just the flow of life.

being here in china... it is bliss for me. i am away from... almost everything. being here puts me in my place. seeing the way of life here, their perspective, and for myself realizing what is important to me.

perspective: a true understanding of the relative importance of things.

perspective. that is the biggest thing i am gaining from living and working here. we all know what we think is important, but how often to we pause to gain a true understanding of the importance of things. how often to we act and shape our lives to reflect what we feel is important. welp, that is why i am here.

this post wasn't supposed to be so.... deep? haha. but it is on my mind, and writing things out helps me make sense of what goes on in my mind.

when it comes to the "emotion surrounding my recent memories," i have finally forgotten. and it feels sooo great.

"Forgetfulness is a form of freedom."

{various pictures from this week}